Wednesday, November 7, 2007

A lot on my mind...

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I'm going through a few things right now that have really got me thinking. I know I need to ask the question about a new job decision I'm making at the day job and if it will really keep me on track for the goals I have outside of work or if it will suck more time and energy out of me that I don't have as a pregnant 37 year old.

It's funny because there are a lot of opportunities starting me in the face right now but I find myself sucked in a bit to the day job because of the changes happening there and the love of feeling needed and liking a challenge. Sometimes those challenges come with a price. The position I had before this one was REALLY exciting and visible but the support of management was not there. After I had felt like I was doing a bang up job, I was actually asked to find another position. It was devastating at the time but once I left the position my health started to return to normal and my stress level was next to nothing.

I found a quote today I really liked that I wanted to share with all of you...

"Destiny pulls us forward while the disappointments of our past try to drag us back; back into the mud of mediocrity and complacency. Our life soon becomes a tug-of-war of mental and emotional anguish, until the final decision is made. We must resolve within our soul the question; do I go forward, retreat and give up, or simply stand still? My friend, there is only one logical answer to this question, that has plagued the mind of every human on earth - go forward! Embrace the path that leads to your destiny. For the true pursuit of happiness is the pursuit of Destiny."

- James A. Jimason, Author of the book "Destiny is calling you. Can you hear it?"

Sometimes it's really easy to get "off" the path to your Destiny by thinking short term. Though a current position may not feel as fulfilling, juggling life and other business (ie UB) takes time and I'd like to actually devote more time to those things that the day job doesn't necessary allow. Sometimes it's better to sacrifice the immediate challenge for a bit of mediocrity in order to find your new passion and embrace it. Patience is not MY virtue but I'm learning that looking at the big and longer picture vs. the exciting and in your face road that could lead to despair and disappointment is a picture I need to take with the camera in my mind and heart. Didn't mean to get so deep today but hopefully you'll all look at your own internal picture and make sure you are doing what you need to in order to follow your goals and dreams and make them a reality.

- S


UB SoCal said...

I love the quote! I, too, have had to do a lot of internal reflection about the "day job". At the age of 44...soon to be 45, I have come to the realization that there is more to life than a nice salary. I want to love what I do and if that means living a modest life style, then I'm OK with that. My youngest is a Sophomore in HS so after he graduates, I can stop doing what I have to do and start to do what I love to do. I'm not sure what that is yet, but it's not what I'm doing right now! I, too, apologize for getting so deep! I'm sure you will make the right decision! Just don't leave us!

The Garden Maiden said...

Boy could I relate to this post. I allowed myself to be sucked into the "job" and I suppose I got some ego stroking out of it, and took too much ownership of it and then it just literally sucked the life right out of me. Fortunately I was able to "escape" but not before it left permanent damage to my body and yes as this post says to me spirit as well. It takes time to heal, but if you aren't moving forward you are going backwards, there is no standing still in life.